Still here!

Yep, still posting. Saturday! The absolute best day of the week. No work, cutting the grass, weeding, making the place neat and tidy - heaven!

Saw the therapist. Got on well with her. Seems I have a lack of self esteem - not sure why and will probably not work that out either. She really helped put things in perspective and I will be going back next week. She really helped me identify the fact that I have not got over the death of my father. It happened a few years ago and I was four thousand miles away when I got the call. There was nothing I could do - way too fast. I had no idea just how much I loved him until he went. He was the one unshakable force in my life
My mother is superb - the person I spoke to most of the time, but in the thankfully few times I hit absolute rock bottom it was my father that pulled me back. With just a few words - it was all it took. He made it seem that everything should be treated as an adventure and that is what I need him to say now. It's OK, things will work out, don't worry. My homework is to write my Dad a letter about what is going on in my life and then answering it. Will do it on the plane tomorrow.